Eid'l Adha 2012

MY EID'L ADHA 2012

Alhamdulillah, were just done with our salatol eid. Another milestone and achievement in my spiritual life wherein it could burn my sins and start for a new life. I have remembered the day when I was overwhelmed with anxiety two months ago, due to un intentionally missing the eid'l fitr. Indeed, tears shed. I have considered that time as my unforgettable day. But now everything went ok. I made sure to alarm my cellphone before I slept to avoid my imperfection for the past eid'l fitr. As a result, I was able to wake up early and prepared for everything.

Performing sujood

All my plans got successful. I prayed two rak'ah just before I leave and eat after, I wear my favourite clothes, I did a lot of takbiratol ikhram, I went by one route and return by one another and many others. However, one of it got failed which is to seat in front the khaatib. Though it was sad to fail with that, but I elevate myself not to be reigned by sorrow and anger. Anger because despite of my early preparations, here comes that one of my housemates told me to wait for him. I waited for several minutes, yet, when I got tired of waiting and went upstairs to fetch him, he told me to go alone because he is not going to attend the salatol eid anymore.

How craziness? How idleness? After all my suffering for waiting him, now he is telling to go alone just because he is already defeated by his iblis and was captivated by his own desires? Asthagfirullah, I was really disappointed, I could not control my temper to voice out it. Consequently, as I went to the field where we spent our eid, the venue had already occupied by the un countable crowd which composed of children, mothers and fathers, and lolos and lolas in the village.

Unfortunately, when I looked at the first saaf, it was already been full. I felt sad and frustrated. I find for the vacant space to put down my sambayanga and join with the takbiratol ikhraam. After a few minutes, we all stood up to finally start the salatol eid. Fortunately, as I stared up at front, there was a vacant space there, I immediately took my sambayanga and went there.

Later on, the khutbah was started; actually I really like it, the khaatib seemingly eloquent, his facial expression was good, the content of his wasyat was very interesting wherein the peoples lend their attention as he smoothly delivered it. But, I was little disappointed when he said “it was prophet Ismail who was once have a dreams that the eleven stars and the moon were vowed at him, when in fact its Prophet Yusuph.

Nevertheless, it was not the hindrance to enjoy my eid, I was recalled by the saying “there's no perfect except for Allah” hence, I continue to listen attentively until I slowly calm down.

Though it was not good in start, but I’m still grateful because later on, as I lend my ears to the wisdom and content of the kahutbah, my anger was stead off by my tears